Rain down on me..
Friday, November 04, 2005
chinese is a very profound language i would say. some words contains double meanings or even mean more but some words only carry one meaning. perhaps similar in certain ways but it`s different! check the dictionary when in doubt.
am i so deprived to the point that i have to stoop to that low level? i`m really puzzled by myself. my heart and my mind does`nt seem to compromise with my words nor my actions. i tell my soul that i can only recollect, but it seems real rather than virtual. twins may be identical not only in looks but also personalities, but they are still different people. mirror images may be deceiving i warned myself. i simply do not understand why am i so obstinate!!! i regretted disclosing myself because it`s still too fast to judge and to conclude. i should have been more reserved. my opponent is still myself. i lost yet again to the rashness that failed me once. is an apocalypse going to strike? please be harsh on me if there's a need. apologising may serve no purpose i understand. but i`m too rash. reproach it on me. i`m such a b****. i`m still a kid i think. i just can`t think right. i don`t think i`m happy. i stepped back because i`m still afraid, still unsure. perhaps it`s friction, not chemistry. it strucked me because i`m reminded of that fatefulness. i ponder upon again and discover new thoughts, real real ones. perhaps i still need time, perhaps i hate answering fateful questions, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps... i don`t want to give myself anymore interrogations. i`m in disarray now. i need to set my precedences right. have i sinned???
i`m not a girl, not yet a woman.
i`ve realised it. that`s why i can`t make up my mind already.
2:19 AM
chinese is a very profound language i would say. some words contains double meanings or even mean more but some words only carry one meaning. perhaps similar in certain ways but it`s different! check the dictionary when in doubt.
am i so deprived to the point that i have to stoop to that low level? i`m really puzzled by myself. my heart and my mind does`nt seem to compromise with my words nor my actions. i tell my soul that i can only recollect, but it seems real rather than virtual. twins may be identical not only in looks but also personalities, but they are still different people. mirror images may be deceiving i warned myself. i simply do not understand why am i so obstinate!!! i regretted disclosing myself because it`s still too fast to judge and to conclude. i should have been more reserved. my opponent is still myself. i lost yet again to the rashness that failed me once. is an apocalypse going to strike? please be harsh on me if there's a need. apologising may serve no purpose i understand. but i`m too rash. reproach it on me. i`m such a b****. i`m still a kid i think. i just can`t think right. i don`t think i`m happy. i stepped back because i`m still afraid, still unsure. perhaps it`s friction, not chemistry. it strucked me because i`m reminded of that fatefulness. i ponder upon again and discover new thoughts, real real ones. perhaps i still need time, perhaps i hate answering fateful questions, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps... i don`t want to give myself anymore interrogations. i`m in disarray now. i need to set my precedences right. have i sinned???
i`m not a girl, not yet a woman.
i`ve realised it. that`s why i can`t make up my mind already.
posted by SERENiFiED PRiNCESS on 2:19 AM
